Tuesday, April 24, 2012

Before the half...

I've had three major things on my mind lately.  And I had a lot of time to consider them on a recent 7 mi run.

The first thing I'm considering is my running.  I'll actually be happy to be back to running for fun.  Running lately has seemed more like a chore - and not so much fun.  I enjoyed my 7 mi run, but I haven't enjoyed many of my longer runs (the two 10 mile ones in particular).  That is a long time to be running alone, and all I can seem to think is how I don't want to be there...I'd rather be at home.  I have no idea if I'll do another half.  It will have to be an amazing time for me to even consider it.

The second thing I'm considering is the half itself.  I have my goals in my head and I don't know if I'm going to be able to achieve them.  The only one I'm fairly certain I can achieve is the actual finishing.  I did have a nightmare the other day that I was happily running along, when I got to the finish line to find everyone had gone home.  I was so mad I had worked so hard to finish it, and didn't even get the title of "finishing". (There is a 3:30 time limit on the race.)  I actually dreamed that right before my 7 mi run.  We'll see how this goes.

The last thing I've been considering, which...also related to running...is my lack of running partners.  It is so hard to find people to run with.  I don't mind running alone at all, but it surely would be nice to have a partner now and then.  It doesn't seem like it should be so hard - but it is.  And I could delve into where these thoughts lead me on my runs, but they are rather ridiculous, dramatic and over the top.  At least I can recognize it right?

So in 5 days I'll be running 13.1 miles.  It will be the longest distance I have ever run.  I'm nervous - and I haven't been this nervous over a race since...well since my 8K in October.  I came in next to last there.  Hopefully I do a little better in this race... :)

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